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All I want, ZUKAANG DRABBLE

Psycho Teddy

Ok, now I know you guys voted for me to write Jai ho but I just couldn’t resist trying to write this…..It came out as a disaster and I really think I did a horrible job but yeaaaahhhh, I just posted it to get rid of the idea once and for all. I was just playing around with the idea of Aang finally growing up, being a man and topping Zuko XDD. I just wanted to try reversing their roles for once  and this little monstrosity was born.

Ok,.....standard disclaimers apply...go on ahead

 

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Zuko looked around the grand hall of Ba Sing Se palace, his golden eyes briefly registering all the different faces, familiar and not before moving to another face He and almost everybody important in all four natios were in Ba sing se, celebrating the engagement of the avatar to his beloved water tribe woman. He was seeking him out. He could deny it all he wants but he knows that every time he would be in the same place as him, in one of these joyful celebrations, when everybody is too preoccupied to notice anything, his eyes would automatically look for even the barest hint of blue arrows or orange robes.


Too many times, I have wondered

What all the tryin' is for.


He really has to stop this….this addiction before it gets to be too much, if they get too close, get buried too deep within the other…worse, if they were ever to be found out, not only will their lives be ruined, Katara’s and Mai’s and the hope of the airbenders will be destroyed forever………Zuko knows that he can’t go on doing this….wanting him, what could never be his but somehow….everytime he tried to stay away, he always comes crawling back to him, as if his body was repeatedly drawn to him without  him noticing. Sometimes, he just wants to give up, knowing that he’ll never win, but still, he had to try…at least try to quit.


You come around, I feel so down

I'm gonna drown

'Cause I know that you've fallen short


His breath hitched and he looked away when his wondering eyes ran into the gray ones he’d been searching for all night.  Don’t look, he had to resist, turn away and run before he gets drowned in those stormy pools again. He felt a hand rest against his arm and he looked up to see no other than his soon to be wife looking at him in concern. His heart lurched in guilt as he stared into her tawny eyes, harboring the care and devotion for him that he no longer possessed
for her.


“Are you ok?”


She asked, the hand on his arm rubbing up and down slowly, trying to soothe him. “You look pained, are you sick?” Mai asked, Brushing her fingers against his fore head then resting them gently against his cheek.  He offered her a small smile, he was sick, he was about to be married but he still can’t let go of a man who was also with another. He was a sick, masochist who kept holding on to a man who can never return his feelings, who only saw him as a way to release pent up desires.


“I don’t feel well, I think I drank too much…or ate something bad…do you mind if I go to one of the guest rooms?”

She kissed him gently and his heart throbbed in guilt again. “No, I don’t mind being alone for a bit, just go lie down before it gets worse.” She said urging him away to the general direction of the guest bed rooms. He smiled sadly at her, not knowing if she noticed the pain behind it.
”Thanks. I’ll be back soon I promise” She returned his smile and watched as he walked away, making sure he made it to the guestrooms safely. As he walked, Zuko could feel not only her eyes, but another pair, burning holes in the back of his head as he made his way out of the crowded hall.


But do you know?

Doesn't change

The way I feel 'bout you, at the end of the day

'cause I know, that I all I want is what you got.

All I want, is what you got.


Zuko found one guest room that was thankfully not occupied with really drunk guests or eager lovers. The fire lord closed the door behind him and rested his forehead against it with a heavy sigh.  He remained there unmoving for a few seconds before turning and surveying the room he had walked into. There was an elegant four poster bed, with a canopy draped with green silk and satin that hung down at different lengths on the side. Beside the bed, there was a vanity, with a golden framed oval mirror. On the far wall, there was a window framed with lush mint green drapes.  He wandered over to the vanity and sat down in front of the mirror. Zuko stared at his reflection for a minute, his long flowing black hair, almost half way down his back now, made him look more and more like his father. But Zuko knows that will never happen for two reasons. He touched the scar that marred the left side of his face. And second….He took off the pointy shoulder piece of his royal fire nation robes and traced his fingers on the wooden beads around his neck, that he wore beneath it.

No fire lord in history ever had or ever will wear an air nomad necklace 

Too many times, I have wanted

To turn around and walk away

Knowing deep inside, I can't provide

What I need from you, anyway


It was a gift from Aang, a sign of their friendship. And nothing more Zuko thought, grasping the wooden beads in his fist.  Why had he kept wearing it secretly for years? The urge to yank it off, destroy it forever so he could never wear it again grabbed hold of him and his fist tensed. Could he finally do it? Start walking away? For real this time? Zuko gasped and his grip on the necklace loosened when he heard the door open. He whirled to see who entered his room and felt his heart rise to his throat as he came face to face with no other than the avatar himself.  Aang’s eyes met his for a split second before he turned and locked the door. Zuko’s heart dropped to his stomach at the gesture. Now he can’t escape, even if he wanted to. He silently cursed himself for not locking it earlier.


Do you know?

Doesn't change

The way I feel 'bout you, at the end of the day

'Cause I know


Zuko kept his eyes down cast as he heard Aang’s light footsteps steadily make his way towards him. His stomach tightened at what he knew was about to happen, again. Aang was already engaged. He was already engaged. He has to stop this before it could even happen.

But he can’t

The fact that both of them are set to be married to other people doesn’t change the thing he’s been denying for years…….he needs Aang…..needs him more than anything.


That all I want is what you got

All I want is what you got

 

“You shouldn’t be here” he said as Aang came to a stop behind him and placed his hands on his shoulders. Zuko shuddered when a pair of warm lips lightly brushed against his neck before nipping at the shell of his ear and whisprering. “You shouldn’t be either.” Aang’s voice had deepened considerably through the years and the vibrations it sent though Zuko’s body seemed to reverberate several times over before slowly fading.


Tell me that I wanna go

But I wanna stay


 
The urge to push him away fought feebly against the urge to pull the monk closer and as Aang’s tounge slowly traced down his neck to his pulse before biting down the urge to turn away was smothered completlely by the overwhelming feelings and yearning he had for the other. He felt Aang’s heart beat against his back as the younger male’s hands descended slowly from his shoulder to his stomach and started undoing the sash that rested just above his waist.  No! Zuko’s mind screamed at him to stop and he nearly did as he stood up and turned to face Aang.

Tell you that I wanna go

But I wanna stay


Before he could utter a word however, the other man had smashed his lips to his, kissing him fiercely.  Zuko gasped, eyes drifting shut as the part of him that wanted to turn around and walk away got smaller and smaller until it was just a small speck of light fighting feebly not to get swallowed by dark passions.


Tell you that I wanna go

But I wanna stay


“You’re still wearing it” Aang rasped, voice deep and husky with desire, gently nudging the air nomad necklace around Zuko’s neck with his nose. Zuko didn’t respond, as his hands untied the sash of Aang’s robes with practiced ease.  Zuko groaned, watching with heavy lidded eyes when Aang’s tounge slipped out, wrapped around one wooden bead and drew it between his teeth. His golden eyes drifted shut as Aang slowly pushed him down to sit on the bed so he could pull the necklace, still grasped in his mouth up Zuko’s head.  Once it was off the fire lord, Aang held his hand out and dropped it on his palm. He carefully placed the neck lace on the vanity and turned back to Zuko. He all but ripped off his robes, clawing at the red cloth as he tugged them off eagerly. Once Zuko was left in only his pants, Aang wasted no time and latched onto his neck, lips tounge and teeth, running over Zuko’s collar bone passionately. 

 

I wanna stay

I wanna stay


Soon enough, Aang’s clothes joined Zuko’s in a pile on the floor and hands and mouths wandered over bare skin, feeling out every curve and plane, never getting enough


But I know I'm gonna lose myself this way


Zuko writhed beneath Aang’s as the airbender came at him again and again, all thoughts of resisting and guilt all but erased from his mind as he surrendered completely to the maddening pleasure and the endless desire for more.


I wanna stay


 
His hands clawed down Aang’s back wishing he could just clutch him to himself forever, to steal him from his duties to the world and just run away with him to a place where it’s only the and nothing can ever come in between.


I wanna stay


Aang hissed in pain when Zuko’s nails broke the skin of his back and left angry red lines in their wake.  Zuko kissed him in apology

I wanna stay


Aang was like a drug, the most lethal, most addicting drug. Though he knew that wanting him will only leave him down the path of destruction, he can never stop, all he can do is want more and more, til he loses himself.


But I know I'm gonna lose myself this way


And as Aang lay beside him, sleeping peacefully, he wondered where the brave Zuko of his teenage days had gone. He wondered where the courage he had to turn against his father was. He needs it now more than ever, he needs to turn away from the thing he want most before it killed him.


Do you know?

Doesn't change

The way I feel 'bout you, at the end of the day

'Cause I know

Aall I want is, what you got

All I want is what you got

Zuko traced the contours of Aang’s face as he slept. ‘Why can’t I find the strength to leave you?’ he thought o himself. He sighed he really was a masochist. Despite the fact that he was wrong for him, despite the fact that he’s going to get married to a woman in  matter of time, it doesn’t change the fact that Zuko needs him….and maybe nothing else will ever change it. He would always want the airbender. He was all he wanted and all he would ever want. He’s just gonna have to keep trying…..


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Oh…my ….effing gosh!!!! That was the WORST piece I have ever written!!!! Seriously, what is wrong with me?! Geeeeeeeezzzzz.  Ok I won’t be surprised if no one reviews. Look at me, I claim to love Zuko and Aang but I keep torturing them this way X(  How dare I butcher their characters with this thing?!!! Well anyway, I apologize for wasting a couple of minutes of your life. You go on ahead and live now XDD.